Ok. Let’s talk about anxiety and stress in the midst of change.
I’ve really seen how feeling stressed comes as a result of my anxiety about wanting things to get done on my time, in my way, making all things about my control.
These last few weeks have brought on mega change in my life. Michael and I moved to a new city, went to Europe, and got engaged. We came to North Carolina basically knowing no one and having very little furniture. In the next two weeks, I’ll be starting graduate school and Michael is working remotely, which is a new experience for him. And while getting engaged is the biggest blessing in the WORLD, I’m learning that trying to plan a wedding long distance comes with many challenges and frustrations.
Soooo yes, I have been feeling very overwhelmed recently with all this change in my life.
And as these changes have occurred, my stress levels have shot through the roof. My mind is always racing about what we need to purchase next for the new home or who I need to communicate with about wedding planning or how I can best be preparing for school. But today, I declare,
Stress will not rob me of my joy
In stressful seasons like this, when stress wants to sneak in and ruin my life, take away the joy of my days, I say we take the power back. We take back how we can regain our strength. We fight for our joy in the midst of stressful seasons and we welcome help along the way. We don’t let pride get in the way of help that’s available. Accept it. Let it help pull you out of whatever hole you feel you’re in.
I’ve been playing the victim for the past week, feeling very defeated by all that’s going on in my life. And it’s frustrating, because although I have experienced some very overwhelming changes and new experiences over the past six weeks, I find my stress interrupting the enjoyment I should have of these seasons.
This past week I felt like I was drowning. I wasn’t taking care of myself like I needed to. I let my stress overwhelm me, and ultimately, I let it control my moods and attitudes. I was allowing it to clog and cloud my gratitude. Only seeing what was wrong and never what was right.
Well, I am tired of allowing stress to have this hold on me. I know I know, this is easier said than done, but I feel empowered and back in my own confidence again. There were many days last week when I wasn’t there, so if you’re in the drowning-state, don’t force yourself out of it if you need to feel it a little longer. It takes time to regain your strength, and that’s ok.
I truly found the relief I needed when I let go of the control. When I told God,
Hey, this is what’s stressing me out. I’m worried about x, y, and z, but know that you got this when I don’t feel like I do. And you know what? I know I’m going to keep messing up along the way as I try and figure it out. But I know I have to keep showing myself kindness and believing in your grace when I do. I let go of control and trust you.
So yeah. This is essentially me declaring that surrender is better than stress. Letting go of control leads to freedom. Remembering how God provides for you leads to faith that He will do it again. And it’s all going to be okay.