It can be scary to dream big, and I’m learning, it can sometimes be even scarier when that dream actually becomes a reality. We all have those lofty goals we want to reach in life, those dreams that might require us making a 180 degree turn in some way, leaving us feeling a little flustered and bewildered when we reach those goals. We might find ourselves thinking, wow, am I really doing this??
Recently, I have achieved a massive dream of mine – becoming a CycleBar Instructor. Holy smokes, y’all, it doesn’t feel real most days that I actually did it!! But I was persistent, dedicated, passionate, and so well supported, that here I am today – stepping into this fitness world in the hopes to help others grow stronger in so many ways.
As I began teaching my first CycleBar Class, I found myself thinking omg, you’re really doing this…you’re doing this…wait, CAN you do this? Are you actually trained enough to do this? Have you actually worked hard enough to achieve this goal?
Looking back, the answer to those questions should be a resounding YES! But in that moment, I wavered. I became unsure and insecure, questioning if I deserved to be in front of that studio. Enter in…
the persistent inability to believe that one’s success is deserved or has been legitimately achieved as a result of one’s own efforts or skills.
Y’all. I worked so dang hard to get where I am today. And I knew that. I knew that I had earned this position, that I had worked my tooshie off to achieve this dream, yet, those lies crept in that I didn’t actually deserve to be there.
Not only is going after your dreams a big risk at times…but then, omg, what happens when you actually ACHIEVE them?? It’s a scary thing to be stepping into a new arena as the least experienced. You’re in a vulnerable spot, especially for me, being someone who relies way too heavily on the affirmation from others.
If you’re ever feeling this way, you’re not alone. It’s totally normal to feel scared and unsure when we are stepping into our dreams, into something new in our lives. It’s ok to even feel unsure and insecure at times. Acknowledge those emotions, then challenge them with the truth – that you CAN do this and you ARE here because you have worked hard and deserve to be. If we weren’t a little scared stepping into our dreams, into our next steps, into our big goals for life, then that might be an indicator that they aren’t big enough.
God can do anything, you know—far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us.
~Ephesians 3:20-21, The Message
As we all move through our journeys to our dreams and goals, we may have some moments where imposter syndrome sneaks in and we think we are undeserving of our success. When that happens, let’s be gracious and kind to ourselves like we would be with our friends. When that happens, let’s remember to speak truth to those lies. And when that happens, let’s especially remember that God can and will do abundantly more than what we could ever dream up in our own heads, and he equips us with his Spirit to get it done.
God is moving, always, so let’s lean into the faith that with Him we can make what feels impossible, possible.