The past few weeks have been some of the most hectic and unpredictable of my life. I moved to South Carolina and my team arrived to begin our recruitment process. Hurricane Irma also decided to arrive right around the same time my team did, leaving us in a literal cone of uncertainty about what to do.
Should we go? Should we stay? Where are the students going? What is going to happen to our plans and our processes?
We didn’t have many answers to those questions, so we did what we thought was best and packed our bags and left.
The next six days consisted of us traveling to four different cities and staying in four different places. From Camden to Atlanta to Greenville and back to Myrtle Beach, this team did it all. It was a wild ride, but in the end, everything worked out and we were still able to finish our recruitment process on time and celebrate our bid day as originally scheduled. I couldn’t believe it!
On the news, when reporters were talking about Irma, they kept referring to the cone of uncertainty and how they couldn’t be too certain of where the hurricane was going to hit. Well, that is the best way I can describe how my life felt the past few weeks – like a cone of uncertainty. Moving out here to a totally new city where I knew few people living by myself while trying to recruit an entirely new chapter virtually during a hurricane…all of that just left me feeling a bit uncertain about how this whole experience was going to go. BUT I am so excited to share with you what I learned about God’s faithfulness throughout the past few weeks and how He so graciously provided for me and my team when we really didn’t think we could do it.
In the midst of this storm, I turned to Mark 4 and the story of when Jesus calms the storm. Scripture says,
And a great windstorm arose, and the waves were breaking into the boat, so that the boat was already filling. But he was in the stern, asleep on the cushion. And they woke him and said to him, “Teacher, do you not care that we are perishing?” And he awoke and rebuked the wind and said to the sea, “Peace! Be still!” And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm. He said to them, “Why are you so afraid? Have you still no faith?” And they were filled with great fear and said to one another, “Who then is this, that even the wind and the sea obey him?” ~Mark 4: 37-41
It is so easy for me to feel like Jesus is asleep and not listening to me. In times of uncertainty and fear, sometimes it can feel like God is silent and He doesn’t care at all. But then I read this passage, and remembered that even when it may feel like God isn’t doing anything, He still has the power to prevail and to calm any storm in my life. He is sovereign over all, even the storm, and this passage reminded me that He will protect me no matter what and He will never leave me.
It’s hard to have faith when there is little physical evidence of it. But I guess that’s when our faith is tested the most…when we can’t see it and when storms are raging. We have to have faith that Jesus is not asleep, He hasn’t checked out on us, but rather He is still in perfect control, even over what seems scary, and He will never abandon us.
While we were in Atlanta, we had the opportunity to visit Passion City Church and hear Louie Giglio preach a sermon. Ironically enough, the sermon was about the cone of uncertainty and living fearless in an age of fear. I think everyone at that huge church that morning needed to hear this message as Irma was hitting land that day. There were two phrases that really struck me during his sermon. He talked about having
Confident Concern and Empowered Engagement
I learned that I can be concerned about what is going on in the world around me, but at the same time, I don’t have to be afraid because I can be confident in the provision of the Lord and how He is always with us as our refuge and strength. I can be engaged in the difficulties with the empowered strength that comes from Christ alone. I don’t have to be afraid.
To throw a little Chi Omega at you, truly I have never witnessed a group of women embody our Symphony more than I did in my team over these past two weeks. There were moments where I was really scared and discouraged, where I didn’t think that we could make this colonization happen on time and that we weren’t going to hit our goals. But this team never quit, never made excuses, and never gave up. There was never one moment of negativity or doubt, never one moment where we couldn’t find a laugh or a smile amongst our group. These women showed me what being discouraged never looked like in the midst of uncertainty and displayed to me how incredibly resilient and fearless Chi Omega women are.
This chapter, the Gamma Mu Chapter of Chi Omega, means so much to me already for so many different reasons. I think the biggest reminder it gives me of all is that this chapter was created in the midst of a storm. It was created in the midst of uncertainty mixed with a lot of innovative ideas for how to recruit virtually. This chapter came together because of the faithfulness and hope of my team. I am confident this chapter is going to be full of resilient, strong, positive women who make a difference in the world despite of our ever-changing circumstances. I am so thankful for the endless joy these women bring me already and the incredible lessons they remind me of whenever I think of them.
I never thought I’d say this, but God, thank you for the uncertainty you bring into my life. Every time you challenge me, I become stronger and more confident in who you are and how you provide for me. I know that no matter what comes my way, you can be trusted and you will fulfill your purpose for me, whatever that looks like.
To my team, thank you for showing me what resilience and positivity and perseverance looks like in the face of uncertainty. To my Gamma Mu gals, know that your journey is just beginning and that Chi Omega will never stop making you stronger. Give it your all, because if you let it, it will change your life.